Ronald (Ronnie) Lock

Born on 22 June 1954
Passed away on 27 December 2016
Aged 62 years
Eva turned 4 and little Chloe 1! We love and miss you so much. We live on for you. My two girls who will love and always know about you ❤ Your granddaughters who love you and will always know about you. We speak of you all the time. We love and miss you always.
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The one thing I miss most is calling out to you (at least 5 times) every night saying ' good night dad I love you ' because I would always say it so much that you would have to say it back in return. I miss hearing it back. I miss you saying ' yeah yeah, I heard you the first time, night chook I love you too' and I would always think well if you just said it back the first time I wouldn't have to annoy you five more times after and would happily just go off to bed. Truth is I never slept well until I heard it back, or heard you come in and sit at the bottom of the stairs taking off your work boots, or if you were at work I would always send a good night text. I miss you every single night dad. I miss you so much. I just can't believe it. I always wonder if you felt this broken and felt this broken forever after losing your parents? I can't imagine my life, my forever without you. Nothing seems more unbearable than that. We all need you.
Rachel Lock gave a flower for Ronald (Ronnie) Lock
Tonight is incredibly hard Dad as it just became 9 months without having you here with us. This year has been the biggest blur, it has gone so incredibly fast, so fast that I don't know how it's possible, but then I also think back to the last day we got to spend with you and that feels like forever ago. I miss you so much that it hurts. I feel like my heart has been completely ripped out all over again. I'm replaying our last day with you over and over again. I'm remembering the last moment your eyes were open and looking at me and I was talking to you and could feel your hand slightly clench. I was so relieved to know you could hear me. I just wish I knew what you were trying to say back. That is something I will never come to terms with, not knowing what you were thinking or feeling, what was running through your head. If there was any last words you wanted to say. One of the last conversations we had and you could respond was you being upset with me for not bringing you a milkshake. Truth was I didn't care about the milkshake, I ran so fast up to you just wanting to see you and spend one on one time with you before someone else came to visit. I'm sorry I didn't bring you the milkshake dad. I love you and I miss you so much. I just want to hold you in my arms again and give you a big cuddle and say 'wow those were the worst 9 months of my entire life but thank god you're back!' I wish this was just some nightmare and one day we all wake up and have you back. What we would all do to have you here with us again. We all miss you so much dad. Life isn't the same without you, our home isn't the same, our family is quiet, we have all lost our spark without having you here to make us laugh, when the family all gets together, it just makes us all miss you even more, your humour, jokes and laughter is missed dearly. Surprisingly I even miss the footy season with your negative comments and losses on the bets you made. I miss hearing your voice, I miss coming home seeing you sitting in your recliner with your glasses on, cup of coffee and news paper with the remote on your lap, even if you were reading the paper you'd make sure no one could change the channel. I miss watching law and order and csi and Hawaii 5 O and of course home and away with you. Even though we didn't need to watch it because you'd tell us the entire story line before the episode finished and it was always spot on. I miss hearing you laugh extra hard downstairs to the repeat of friends just to make sure we all heard and would come down and watch it with you. I miss sitting on the veranda watching sunsets or sitting out the back around the pool. I always sit in your chair out the front and look out. I try and have tried so many times to put myself in your shoes dad and I honestly never even came close, for everything you went through, I don't know and will never know how you did it. You're truly the strongest person in the world. Whenever I'm sad I always try and picture your voice and you kissing me on the forehead telling me 'I'm alright chook' and I let my self believe that you are because that's the only way I can continue on. Is knowing you're free and having the best time and knowing you'll come back for us all one day. I always wonder where you are, what you're doing, what heaven is like, who you're visiting, then I think.... he's probably just gone back to work. You were always in your element down there. So I just like to think wherever you are, you are happy and dad, please know wherever you are, we are right there with you. ❤
Rachel Lock gave a flower for Ronald (Ronnie) Lock
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